At home alone with a single light

Thinking about a vanilla crush

Lost to the straight and narrow line

It’s not a surprise but a push

Down the same path I’ve walked

All my life, one that winds

And never rises without a fall


This jealousy comes from nothing 

It is completely not my own

But not unlike me, my heart prone 

To sink like a stone, thrown by 

My own fist as if to test the waters

Knowing that I’ve never been able

To skip one and make ripples

Not born from a great splash


I long for this heaviness

Forgoing how I got here, the slow

Fabrication of us now has a wrench 

Thrown in, and I couldn’t be more

Thrilled to feel something like loss

To feel what I felt those years ago

When I was never more alone 

And never more like myself